December 06, 2007

Book Contents

CONTENTS

Introduction

Part I        The Misadventure   

                1    A Simple Plan... A Deadly Quest   
                2    Awaiting Rescue   
                3    In the Shadow of Death   
                4    Looking Back... Moving On 
 
Part II        The Message
   
                5    1)  Be prepared to die   
                6    2)  Have a plan to live   
                7    3)  Do it now 
 
Part III        The Journey Into the Self
   
                8    Optimizing Your Life   
                9    Epilogue

Appendix       Glossary
                       Frequently Asked Questions
                       Bibliography
                       Feedback/Testimonials
                       About the Author

Book Overview

Mt. Washington, New Hampshire, 23 October several years ago: It was truly the darkest, stormiest night of my life, for I came within five minutes of death...because, unbeknownst to me, my rescuers were about to give up! During that long night, I waited for rescue in extreme "whiteout" conditions, with hurricane-force winds, and suffering from hypothermia. Eventually, I simply waited for Death.

I had abundant time to think about living...and about dying. It was Boswell who wrote that "the threat of hanging (dying) tends to focus the mind." It has been said since ancient times "that to know how to live one must first learn to die."

After numerous keynote presentations and workshops it is time to write the book.

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Introduction - Part A

Introduction

"Life is a journey,
and when you think it is close to ending,
it is just beginning."
—Barbara Kucera, Metamorphosis

Life is a journey, not a destination. It is a process, not an endpoint. Life is a mystery to be explored, not a problem to be solved.

As a veteran strategic planner, I had lived an “examined” life, as extolled by the Greek philosopher Socrates; but it took a “near death” experience for me to have the opportunity and the commitment to take greater charge of my life and, in the process, travel even deeper into my Self. If you are adventurous and courageous, you too can take that deeper Journey into the Self.

My life had followed an orderly and efficient series of phases. I graduated from college with degrees in Chemistry and Bible, earned an M.D., completed internship and residency, spent two years as an Epidemic Intelligence Service Officer with the CDC, and was named Chief of Pathology at a New England medical center, all by the age of thirty-three. For the next twenty-five years, I enjoyed a successful group practice in medicine and created a number of ventures in and outside the practice of Medicine. Surrounding myself with talented people and giving them an opportunity to soar was the key to my success.

During that time I married, divorced, remarried, and helped raise four fine children.  In 1995 I took early retirement from medical practice to enjoy the worlds of consulting, writing, speaking, and traveling, with a focus on mountaineering. I was also entering the world of the ageing Taoist who was given the freedom to roam and to study his life’s work now that his children were grown and independent. It was the world of self-actualization, at the top of the Hierarchy of Needs as described by psychologist Abraham Maslow.

The phases of one’s life may be divided into specific episodes, usually of shorter duration and often of greater intensity. An episode may include a tour of military duty, an internship in a law office or hospital, childbirth, an adventure in Mexico or Europe, or a short and intense, but ill-fated, romance.

For me, one of these episodes occurred October 23, 1999 on Mt. Washington in New Hampshire, days before my sixty-first birthday. Although for years my life had focused largely on my busy medical practice, I had found the time to respond to the lure of the mountains. Mountaineering, that death-defying dance with gravity, offers freedom, challenge, risk, and (hopefully) success in summiting. Over several decades I had hiked on five continents and climbed on some of the highest and most dramatic mountains in the world—from Mt. Elbrus in Russia to Kilimanjaro in Africa to Aconcagua in Argentina—each the highest mountains in their respective continents.

I was never a pretender to stand atop Mt. Everest.

On those spectacular mountains I was a member of organized teams with highly-qualified guides. I always returned without a serious incident. In mountaineering, Goal #2 is to summit. Goal #1 is to return safely and intact.

The Mt. Washington episode was different. That which had started as a simple hike turned into a disastrous misadventure.

There is a popular concept that everyone should enjoy fifteen minutes of fame. I, however, have experienced a much longer period of infamy—of negative coverage on countless media outlets nationwide. There are three controversies surrounding my misadventure that merit consideration:

My use of a cellular telephone to call for rescue;

The fact that I was hiking solo;

My decision to press on, instead of turning back, when the weather changed from rain to snow.

Introduction- Part B

This book gives my perspective of the whole story and what I learned from it. You can decide which of my decisions or actions were foolish, which were too risky, which were just bad luck, and which, if any, were wise. Then you may ask yourself:

What would I have done?

Although the threat of death serves as the catalyst in this book, the focus is on life. We will celebrate life, the joys of life, all of our lives, here and now, and into the future. For yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift—that is why it is called the present.


As I shared my story in keynote presentations and workshops, and as I wrote this book, a question emerged: Had my misadventure been a quest, in a mythical, yet real, sense? Had I been lured into a personal quest by marvelous snowflakes, when the weather changed from a dreary, rainy fall day into a winter wonderland?


My parents were from Norway, so I was raised on Norse myths and fairy tales. In grade school we studied Beowulf and the tales of King Arthur and the quest for the Holy Grail. In college, we studied Bunyan’s Pilgrim’s Progress, the ultimate Christian allegory. During one summer I attended the University of Oslo Summer School and studied Norse myths and Icelandic sagas.


In 1989, my world of myths was expanded, yet paradoxically focused and simplified, when I attended a workshop at The Esalen Institute in California. The workshop celebrated the life and writings of Joseph Campbell, based on his book Hero with a Thousand Faces. Campbell wrote that there is a commonality of myths throughout time and place. He also noted that there are generally three phases of the quest in mythology: separation, initiation, and return. These phases, these rites of passage, may be started by a “call to adventure,” and evolve through a series of thresholds: the possibility of meeting interesting characters and of gaining supernatural aids or assistance, then rescue and finally return. The quest takes the hero into a new and unknown world of trials and testing, and back home.


The hero always travels solo.


However, a true hero who returns from a quest dies as an ordinary person and is reborn as a new or eternal person. The returning hero has changed and then lives a new life, for he then lives in two worlds.


It would be presumptuous for me to equate my three-day misadventure and the months of follow-up physical recovery, introspection, and resolution to the great mythical quests. The classic quests include the tribulation of Odysseus, who sailed the Mediterranean for years; the struggles of Gautama the Buddha, who spent much of a lifetime to gain enlightenment; and the sufferings of Prometheus, who stole fire from the gods and was chained to Mt.Elbrus. For every hero—even an antihero—there is not only an initial call to adventure; there may be a final call to share the new message gained on the quest. It may be a message that falls on deaf, even angry, ears.


Although my own experience was on a much smaller scale than these mythical quests, I share my message in this book. I address my misadventure as both a physical and spiritual quest, as well as a key source of lessons learned that will impact the remainder of my life. They will also redefine my view of death and contribute to a deeper understanding of my persona, the view I like to present to the public. But above all, the lessons provide a deep exploration into my true nature, the genuine me.


I share my own Journey Into the Self.


It has been said that in the entire world, over all the ages, there are only two story themes:       

     Local person leaves town.

     Stranger comes to town.

This is a story of both.


                                   “The longest journey is the journey inward.”

                                                                    —Dag Hammarskjold

December 09, 2007

Chapter 1- A

Chapter 1

A Simple Plan... A Deadly Quest

Without a moment’s hesitation, I turn onto the new trail. Now I am ascending into the screaming wind towards the summit. This is not the goal of the new plan: the goal is to find the Auto Road and get down off the mountain, as fast as possible.          


    Snow stings my face with its fury. Rime ice, formed from frozen fog or clouds by the blistering wind, covers my clothes, face, and glasses. The exposed parts of my face are burning. I notice that the cairns, the piles of rocks that mark the trail, are now wider and higher and are spaced closer and closer together, an ominous sign that this area must experience really harsh winter weather. I take each step slowly and carefully, for this trail is now much rougher; it seems to be composed of large rocks covered with an increasing and varying depth of snow and ice.

My heart is beating rapidly, more out of fear than exertion, for my ascent is very slow, very deliberate. In spite of the roaring wind, I can hear my heartbeat pounding in my ears. Although I know I am close to the Auto Road, I also know I am in big trouble. I feverishly search for the second sign, the one that should direct me onto the Auto Road. Where is it? Is it covered with rime ice? Has it been taken by some hiker as a souvenir?


     I must continue hiking even though I am still ascending into the wind. Worse yet, it is now late afternoon. Soon, the night will envelop the mountain and me. My wide-open world is now closing in on me.

A powerful blast of wind and snow suddenly strikes me…then again, like the icy breath of an angry mountain god. I am now in true whiteout conditions. Where is the next cairn? I desperately continue—five paces, then ten. No cairn. I retrace my steps to the last cairn. I find it. If only I had a hiking partner, we could take turns finding the next cairn, which are usually within fifteen to twenty feet of each other. Together, we could leap-frog our way to the Auto Road and home. I start this process again…and again… I cannot find that next cairn.

I am solo. I am stuck. I stop.


*     *     *

         

What a thrill it is to return to the Mt. Washington area in the Presidential Range of the White Mountains in New Hampshire, where I had enjoyed so many walking and hiking trips from childhood right up to earlier this year.

At last I am free, free to hike, I say to myself as I emerge from the Joe Dodge Lodge after a great night’s sleep. Yesterday afternoon when I drove in, I could not see the top of the mountain and enjoy its majestic heights occasionally visible from the highway, for Mt. Washington is usually cloaked in clouds 305 days a year.

It is Saturday morning in late October and the clouds now blanket the sky completely. They appear motionless, hanging oppressively low in the heavens. A gentle rain is falling, causing the remaining leaves on the trees to dance, each to its own rhythm. Could the spirit of the mountains overcome this singularly dreary day?

Chapter 1- B

I am, however, enthused about hiking in this fall weather with the temperature about forty-five degrees Fahrenheit. I am hiking solo, for my usual hiking partners decided against hiking in the rain. But a little rain can’t stop this veteran hiker.

It is too late to sign up with a hiking club or school, so I am now free to hike wherever I want, for as long as I want, alone. I don’t have to stay with the group, eat my snacks with the group, or carry on vacuous banter with some extrovert who wants to “relate.” I can enjoy my true introvert self. My plan is simple and unstructured: I will hike for eight to ten joyous hours today, and hopefully another eight to ten tomorrow, picking trails as I go.

The optimist in me is hoping that the rain will stop and the sun will emerge enough to light up the remaining fall foliage. Referring to New England, Mark Twain made an interesting observation: “If you don't like the weather, wait a minute.” This is especially true of Mt. Washington, infamous for its unstable climate.

I am outfitted in rubberized clothing—green pants and a red hooded anorak—as I arrive at the nearby Pinkham Notch Center operated by the Appalachian Mountain Club (AMC). That short walk is not much of a test of the rainworthiness of my outerwear. It would take more rain and some real wind to test this fine outfit.

As I approach the dining hall, the aromas of a hearty New England breakfast fill the air. Bacon—wow, do I love bacon! Joining a small group of fellow hikers in the spacious hall, I note that they are enjoying a wide range of food, from bacon and eggs to all sorts of bakery items. There is also a beverage dispenser offering everything just short of hot toddy. Overcoming the temptation, I choose a breakfast focused on a low-fat, low-carb diet: just fluffy scrambled eggs, one piece of bacon, and water. This is sort of a low-fat version of the classic low-carb Atkins diet. Since I have been on the low-carb diet for weight reduction for the past few weeks, why not continue the low-carb pattern on the mountain? This may be a simple breakfast, but not as simple as the breakfast of one raisin, a raisin that I was told to savor maximally during a “human potential” workshop at Esalen Institute in my distant past in California.

On every organized hiking trip I have ever taken, we have “carbo-loaded”; that is, before and during a hike, we consumed a great deal of carbohydrates. In particular, we ate fruit and candy bars, all laced with simple sugars that are easily absorbed, digested, and metabolized. The maxim is that carbohydrates are energy foods; so, why not carry out a simple low-carb experiment and see if I feel any lack of energy on today’s hike? Great idea! It may add some rationale, perhaps some challenge for this day of hiking. This experiment also fits with my classic left-brain, scientific nature.

I briefly consider joining one of the small groups of hikers, but they seem, well... so young.


As I leave the dining hall I pass through the Trading Post area of the Center where they sell a selection of hiking gear and literature. Adjacent to the shop is a large three-dimensional floor model of Mt. Washington and the surrounding area. It shows a host of details, but since I am only a day hiker, and have been on these trails for years—even decades—my interest focuses just on refreshing my memory regarding a few popular trails. Immediately behind the scale model is a wall display, some twenty-two feet long and twelve feet high, featuring the dangers of the Mt. Washington area. The dangers range from losing one’s way to traumatic falls from a cliff, from the inconvenience of poison ivy to the ravages of exposure, even death, due to severe weather. I think that if I stay on the marked and heavily traveled trails I will be fine.

December 11, 2007

Chapter 1- C

On the wall there are also commemorative plaques—one for each person known to have died in the area during the years that records were kept. Nearly one hundred thirty people are featured. While over fifty died from exposure or falls, there were several interesting or bizarre categories
          Since 1873, four people have died while board-sliding down the Cog Railway tracks.
          Ten died in five different airplane crashes.
           Nine died in Cog Railway accidents—eight in a single incident in 1967.

The pathologist in me struggles to avoid visualizing those bodies on morgue tables, and all the sadness and loss surrounding every one of those deaths. I have suffered through the loss of hiking buddies and the trauma of relating the story of the mishap—listening to the families and trying to answer their questions. There are many questions that have no answers. As I linger, the acrid smell of formaldehyde and the stench of decaying bodies in the forensic morgue penetrate my thoughts. This “Wall of Death” brings memories that I immediately suppress.

Approaching the exit door of the Center (elevation 2,032 feet) nearest my chosen trail, the Tuckerman Ravine trail, I glance at the wall covered with a number current notices and general information. Included is the daily update of the weather predictions from the Mt. Washington Observatory on the summit. The posted weather forecast for today calls for:
                                     “...continued rain with a possible cold front
                                            not expected until tomorrow."

Is there any validity to a weather report for an area reputed to have the worst and most capricious climate in the world?

My clothing and gear are appropriate for a day such as this. In my pack, however, I carry a polypropylene NorthFace Denali jacket, which can provide some additional insulation against unexpected cold, down to perhaps ten degrees Fahrenheit in still weather; that is, not windy. I am sure that I will not need this, but why not take it along? After all it is only late October, still fall according to the calendar. But, then again, this is Mt. Washington.

Leaving the AMC Center, I see another bulletin board, a large wooden one, stained with the standard deep brown stain common in state and Federal parks throughout the USA. It is complete with an overhanging roof board to allow the reader to stand out of the rain and study additional notices. Included is a striking yellow one that announces:

                                                                     Warning:

                                          You could be risking someone else’s life...
                               RSA 631:3 Reckless Conduct. A person is guilty of a misdemeanor
                              if he recklessly engages in conduct which places or may place another in
                                                         danger of serious bodily harm.

This warning sign is posted by the New Hampshire Fish and Game and supported by the New Hampshire Search & Rescue Working Group. It is apparent that these folk are organized, able, and willing to rescue someone. It is also clear that they would be distressed with someone who acts recklessly for the notice indicates clearly that “you may face criminal charges.”

Since I see no sign-in log, it’s time to get on with it. The hiking starts out easy, with just a gentle grade. A walk in the park. I hike rapidly up the Tuckerman Ravine trail, perhaps the most popular route in the area, which is more than just a simple trail, but rather a wide two-lane tractor road developed in the early 1900’s. It is also wide enough to have the ascending hikers on one side—the right side, of course, for this is the USA—and those descending on the other. The trail generally parallels the Cutler River, which is overflowing with water in many areas as a result of several continuous days of heavy rain. So much for Mark Twain, the amateur weatherman and his concept of rapidly changing New England weather.

Chapter 1- D

As I ascend, I enter stretches of dense, shadowy forests of mixed hardwoods and conifers, with an occasional openings to a woodland glen ideal for a hobbit house. The gentle rain falls on the remaining brilliant red and yellow leaves of the red and sugar maples, and on an occasional white ash. As I progress up the trail, I note that the white ash leaves are now missing, usually a sign that a heavy frost has already struck this area. The American beech and red oaks stubbornly hang on to their leaves as they will throughout the winter. There is a fresh smell that one experiences during and after a fall rain—not that pungent smell of rotting vegetation that accompanies an early spring rain—during the so-called “dog-shit days” of spring. Occasionally, a gentle breeze carries the scent of hardwood smoke from a distant fireplace—a scent that goes deep into my primitive nature.

Winter is on the way.

The trail crosses the Cutler River at about a quarter mile from the AMC Center and starts a steeper ascent, including four switchbacks, and then crosses the river once again. Although I am in no way tired, I stop on the wooden bridge and sit for a moment to observe the flowing water. The smooth stones and boulders in and around the river bring to mind the observation of Chinese Taoist philosopher Lao Tzu in the book Tao Te Ching. He noted that water is more powerful than the rock, for the water can wear down the rock; yet the rock cannot wear down the water. Coming to mind is the admonition of my tai chi master, Chungliang Huang: “Walk like a cat; move like a river.”

Wow, is my mind ever wandering! Esalen Institute stuff is surfacing. This hike is offering the time and ultimate freedom to contemplate, talk to myself, do some strategic planning, solve some problems, and maybe even create some new ones.

Yesterday was a great day. Although I had taken early retirement from the full-time practice of pathology, I was privileged to speak at the annual meeting of the Medical Technology Societies of Maine and New Hampshire, held in Portland. My subject was “Optimize Your life with the One-page Strategic Planner.” It was a joy to be back with medical technologists, the laboratory professionals that serve so well, often without adequate recognition. They had played a major role in making my twenty-five years as pathologist a success. The comments and questions from the spirited audience focused on the need to constantly update one’s personal and professional strategic plan and to implement the plan.

The rain is increasing as I continue up the trail. I think of the insight shared by Alan Weston at the hospital in Sanford, Maine who grew in London in the early 40’s: “Any day that they are not bombing is a great day.” Today is such a day.

I am hiking solo, but I am not alone on the trail. It is the most popular trail in the Presidential Range, which hosts more visitors each year than Yellowstone and Yosemite combined. In spite of the weather, well over one hundred fellow hikers are here, mostly students from Germany, France, and Canada, as evidenced by the flags sewn to their packs, and the scant banter that can I hear from them. They are, however, descending after a rainy night of camping out. My greetings of Guten tag! and Bon jour! yield few responses and no smiles. A few hikers are ascending, but I continue to hike alone so I can keep my own pace, and stay unfettered. Soon the forest falls silent, except for the gentle rain.

For decades, I had hiked alone, had swum alone, and had hitchhiked alone, throughout North America, Latin America, and Europe. I enjoy being alone for I am a classic introvert. Many people label introverts as shy and inadequate people, but psychiatrist Carl Jung clearly defined an introvert as one who derives his energy from himself, as compared to an extravert, who gains and shares his energy with others. I did, however, have some harrowing experiences, some near-misses with real danger while soloing. I think briefly of my hike up Galdhøpiggen, the highest mountain in Norway and of Irazú, an active volcano in Costa Rica.

I am now about one hour and forty minutes underway, having hiked the 2.4 miles up to the Hermit Lake shelter area (elevation 3,875 feet), nestled on the floor of the Tuckerman’s Ravine. To many hikers and skiers, the ravine is synonymous with Mt. Washington, especially to those who ski here in the late winter and spring. The ravine is a gigantic bowl that welcomes you with its open arms of granite and metamorphic rock. It is about seven hundred feet high and bounded on the left (south) by Boot Spur and, on the right (north) by Lion Head. For one who is truly creative or easily swayed, The Lion Head may be aptly named, but only when viewed from the highway just north of Pinkham Notch. From the ravine, I can only see a steep rock wall which disappears into the heavy cloud cover.

This trail is familiar. I know it well, for during this past summer I hiked it on the way to the Lakes of the Clouds hut for a weekend with the AMC as a member of their Presidential Council. The rain is subsiding a bit as I continue on the trail into and up the ravine. The trail, first quite smooth with a surface of mud and small rocks, soon becomes a series of rock steps created by the AMC folk over the decades. Eventually, the convenient steps give way to a trail of rocks and boulders. The trail is, however, marked well with multiple layers of blue paint. You can’t get lost on this trail.

I reach a point about three-quarters of the way to the top of the ravine where I encounter a major tributary of the Cutler River. It is so swollen with rapidly flowing rainwater that if I attempt to ford it and fall in, I will certainly be swept into the ravine. I am forced to stop.

January 18, 2008

Chapter 1-E

While it’s a shame to abandon the hike and turn around and descend so early in the day, I have no formal plan and no need to hike to the summit, which is still cloud-draped. I know there are other options—a number of trails that I can choose to finish my hiking day. As I descend to the Hermit Lake shelter area at the bottom of the ravine, I imagine the challenge of the ravine during the skiing season—the joys, risks, injuries, and even deaths. The real winter snow season is, no doubt, weeks away.

While hiking down the ravine, I must go slower than I did on the trip up, for I have a right total knee prosthesis which makes it easier to ascend than descend. The final trauma to my chronically osteoarthritic knee came during the descent off a volcano in Mexico called Popocatépetl. My knee had swollen to such a degree that I could not bend it at all: my mountaineering career had come to a sudden halt—at least for a while. The trauma was sort of an orthopedic variation on the theme of Montezuma’s Revenge. For almost a year, it felt like an ice pick impaled my knee, causing such pain that I was forced to have a total prosthesis installed. After about three months of self-pity and nine months of strenuous rehabilitation, I once again heeded the lure of the mountains.

Back at the Hermit Lake shelter area, I stop at the hut, which is a large wooden cabin which shows multiple stages of building and repair, like a typical New England farmhouse. I review my options for the rest of the one-day hike by studying the maps on the wall and evaluating the trails that will complete my day. My new plan is to hike up Lion Head Trail, across the relatively flat Alpine Garden Trail to the Auto Road and then down the lengthy, meandering, and undulating road—partly gravel, partly asphalt. That road from the valley to the summit loosely follows the original walking trail, which had evolved into a bridle path. Later the path was widened to create a carriage road, and with the advent of the automobile, improved as the current toll road. In order to conserve limited resources, the layout and location of the road follows the path of least resistance on this steep mountain. Descending the road will be a great way to end the day.

This new plan, as with any plan, has some risk, but it is anything but macho, for it is based on the wisdom of Brer Rabbit: “The shortest way is not always the safest way home.” Having hiked along the Alpine Garden Trail this past summer, I know the area well and am comfortable going there. The new plan brings a renewed spirit to a day that has been deteriorating.

Before I leave the hut, I sit on the deck and enjoy a sumptuous lunch of turkey, low-fat mozzarella cheese, and water. It’s Atkins’ Diet time. I take a moment to reflect on the fact that Dr. Robert Atkins earned his M.D. at Cornell University Medical College, my alma mater, eight years ahead of me. He was not famous at the time of my graduation, but certainly gained fame over the following decades. It is interesting to note that the low-carbohydrate diet concept has been around for quite some time; actually, over a hundred years. A morbidly obese but fashionable funeral director, William Banting, was put on such a diet by the world-famous British physician Dr. William Harvey. The diet worked so well that Banting wrote a book entitled Letter on Corpulence in 1864. It became the first worldwide best-selling diet book. I observe a small group of Boy Scouts and their leaders who are enjoying their lunch, mostly carbohydrates.

The short easy hike (0.1 miles) down the Tuckerman's Ravine trail leads to the entrance of the summer route of Lion Head Trail (elevation 3,825 feet). I follow it back up the mountain. The trail is steep (slope about 15 to 20 degrees) and tortuous, with many switchbacks and stone or wood steps and handrails. However, I make very good progress.

The winter route of the Lion Head Trail joins from the right just short of a half mile from its beginning. I know the winter route for it had been destroyed by an avalanche in 1995, and soon thereafter rebuilt or relocated. I hiked it in early 1996 during a three-day winter training course with Eastern Mountain Sports in preparation for my first attempt at summiting Aconcagua in Argentina, at 22,800 feet the highest mountain outside of Asia. My heart races as I enjoy my return to the Lion Head trail and reflecting on the rigors of training for and my struggles on Aconcagua—the first really big mountain attempt while sporting my new prosthesis. I got to within 1,200 feet of the summit. Perhaps next year, the summit!

Chapter 1- F

The Lion Head Trail is memorable for another incident that occurred during that training time for Aconcagua. Our group of six ascenders met two Canadian hikers who were descending slowly with one injured hiker. He had ruptured his Achilles tendon. It took all eight of us to transport him down that tortuous and steep trail. We carried him down but more often slid him like a log on the compacted snow and ice. Mountains are no place to lose one’s mobility.

As I ascend, the soft raindrops turn into even softer snowflakes. Beautiful snowflakes. Giant snowflakes. By the millions, no doubt billions, they slowly and gently settle on the path, adhering well to the dirt and rocks. Taking a few moments from my ascent, I toss back the hood of my anorak, remove my glasses, and turn upward to allow the snowflakes to whisper on my face. Slowly, they melt, merge into droplets, and stream down my face as tears—heavenly tears, happy tears. Beyond seeing and feeling these snowflakes, I must taste them. I extend my tongue and simply wait as snowflakes land and melt. Fresh, sweet water.

I study these large snowflakes as they land on my gloves. It was Snowflake Bentley in Jericho, Vermont who studied and photographed snowflakes about 100 years ago… claiming that every snowflake is different from all the others. Amazing.

Usually, during an ascent from rain into snow, one expects a band of freezing rain or sleet, with a resulting slippery trail, causing one to turn around. This is not the case now, for this new blanket is not at all slippery. No doubt, this quick change in the weather in the area is due to one or two possible factors: I am ascending into pre-existing colder layers of air; or more importantly, layers of colder moisture-laden air are moving rapidly into my area—perhaps just a few hundred feet above me. Winds have a laminar flow, layered like water in pipes or streams, like blood in arteries and veins.

There is no wind in my immediate world. The thinning forest, now primarily black spruce and balsam fir, falls silent, for the snowflakes are like sponges that absorb sounds. The only sounds are of my footsteps on the new-fallen snow. The gloom and darkness of the rain is now quickly transforming into the joys and brightness of a winter wonderland, and so early in the season. What is it about the first snowfall of the season that captures one’s attention and emotions? For me, the lure of alpine skiing and winter hiking trails, including the circuitous trails over treacherous glaciers, have been a major part of my life.

Snowflakes, marvelous snowflakes: I’m back!

In Celtic myths the legendary hunter is lured into the unknown, forbidden forest to track and bag the largest stag he had ever seen. Are these millions of marvelous snowflakes falling on a mountain trail the “call to adventure” for me? Am I entering an unknown world of wonder, even danger, as the lure of snowflakes turns my simple hike into a mythic quest?

Ascending rapidly up the trail I notice that the snow is deeper and in places crusty. I am entering a zone of snow from previous snowfalls. I am now about one hour underway on Lion Head trail as I reach the “Lion’s forehead.” Here the gentle winter wonderland changes abruptly. Roaring in from the west, over the rim of Tuckerman’s Ravine, and carrying an increased amount of snow, high winds slam into my face.

It’s decision time: turn back down the steep Lion Head Trail or continue on. In less time that it takes to turn around, I realize that I know, from previous hikes, an established shortcut trail from Lion Head Trail that will get me sooner to the Alpine Garden Trail so I can complete my new plan to hike to the Auto Road and home.